Now What?

This week has been slightly overwhelming for me. I've had my focus steered in a whole different way since last week. See......tomorrow my youngest child turns 18 and the day after he will graduate high school. This is a bittersweet time in my life. It's a treasure to watch your kids grow to adulthood and with all of my kids now adults, our relationships are different. A good different.

I told my youngest the other day that come Monday.....no school....ever again. He's so happy about that. He wanted out of school for quite some time and he has made us so proud in thr young man he has become. However, I asked him what am I supposed to do now? I wonder who I'm going to look after? Who will I make sure is up and awake before I leave for work? Who will I buy school supplies for in the fall? Who will I take care of? As the other kids grew up, I always had more kids below them to keep focusing on. Now all that is done.

Im Remembering the book of Ecclesiastes and how God tells us that there is a time and a season for everything in this life. One chapter will finish and a new one will begin. I know this is how life works. I've had many chapters come to a close in my life, this is another one.....but the adjustment could take a little while.

The kids are close by and not moving far away or anything anytime soon.....and I don't have a problem with change, even though what I'm saying here may seem like it. Since I became a mom in 1993 for the first time, I wanted to watch my kids grow and learn. Through that watching and guiding, I was able to have such joy over the gifts in our kids that our God has given my husband and I. This is exactly what has happened. Being their mom has given me great joy and will continue to do so as they get older.....which means I get older too. Haha.

Over the past few years, I don't live past day to day. Making long term plans isn't something I spend a lot of time doing, and maybe that's wrong, but for me to just enjoy each day that God has given me is all I can do. Looking to far past that isn't for me. I am wondering "now what", but if I was smart in my thinking, I would already know God has it all figured out. He is good and deserves our praise even when we don't understand or want to admit we need him to help transition us from one chapter of our life to the next. Yes there is a time and season under heaven for everything. And yes if we know God is sovereign.....all will be just wonderful! To God be the glory! ❤️