Sharing

Meeting people and talking with them is one of my favorite things to do. I have the opportunity to do this every day. Some I have gotten to know very well. A few years ago we were strangers and now we talk about kids and life and all kinds of things......almost like we've know each other for a lifetime. I've been able to read people better. I know when I see them if they are having a good day or a bad one. Some I can tell what's wrong without ever saying a word. I've learned where they stand with God and their beliefs. I've learned how to adjust my conversations to show what and who God is without saying His name. I've learned to pray more because of my opportunities. I've learned that our God puts people in our life to teach us something. I've learned that God is in control of how and at just what moment a connection will be made. This blows my mind in ways I can't explain.

This past month has been full of changes......difficulties......and blessings all at the same time.  Feeling so exhausted that I know when I can't focus on a question my son is asking me.....I need to recharge. Exhaustion not only from physical aspects, but mental as well, can be challenging in our life. Feeling just....blah.....isn't fun or exciting, but I feel it's Gods way of getting me to evaluate my life and focus on the important things. Things like His word and prayer and these connections I have the opportunity to make with people I may not otherwise ever meet. And my family and loving those He's put in my care and life, the best I can.

I had the chance recently to share about Jesus, to someone who feels they may have a limited time left on earth. This person is so afraid of what's beyond this life that he wants to take someone with him so he won't be scared. I asked if he knows Jesus and the response I got was sad......he said "after what I've don't there's no way I will go anywhere but hell".......I felt sad as this was my mentality for 25+ years. So....I was able to talk about Jesus and how we are all in the same boat when it comes to sin. How I was there too. I was able to share verses about how simple it is to trust in a holy God for our salvation. He said...."if you say this is the answer....I'll give it a whirl". Whether or not he follows through, i may never know, but I did tell him he can believe with his heart and be forgiven of all the sin he's committed and never be afraid again. That we don't have to live that way.....ever. I spent too much of my life in fear as well of what would happen to me after I left this earth. Freedom is wonderful.......

So even in the midst of a blah kind of time.....God can still use us if we are open to his leading. This is another thing that amazes me about Him. Using me in the middle of my sin....my unbelief....my untrusting.....my pride.......this blows my mind.....again. When I think of how big and how loving my God really is....I can't do anything but love him that much more.