Diagnosis

A few weeks ago I went for a test. The results of that test led to further tests....which resulted in removing things from my body that shouldn't have been there. I needed a procedure to remove them. As I lay in the table to get these things removed, I had to be real still. I couldn't move anything for at least 20 minutes. Let me tell you that I am usually one to have a book or my phone in my hand. I read a lot of articles and my Bible time is precious, but this particular time I couldn't have any of that.

So....my options were for this short period of time (that felt like hours) was to either close my eyes or stare at a white wall. Actually I did both.....on and off. But, while I was laying there it was just me and God. I had an opportune time to just rest in him as I was being cut and poked. I was able to tell him all kinds of things and ask for protection. I was able to just be still and recognize He is my God. I was able to just fully rely on His soverignety. I didn't need anyone but Him in that moment.

As I left after the procedure, I began to replay all this in my head. I was alone......in my mind and even though other people were working on me, I was by myself. No one was on the table with me......no one working there was able to feel what I was feeling at that moment. But, the realization of God allowing all these series of events to come into action in my life just blew me away. The way he taught me in that moment on that table to be still ( literally cause I did move my hand and got in trouble) was something I may not have got to learn had all this not taken place. I wouldn't have that that opportunity to sense His presence with me as they did what needed done. Yes, I can spend time with God at my home or church or work, but this was different. It was a blessing I wouldn't have been able to get had I been "healthy".

Waiting on the diagnosis......wasn't too difficult. I have grown to learn that the body we have on this earth is Gods. Everything belongs to Him. If he is letting me use this body for my short time on earth and it's His.....why get all wound up? If it belongs to Him he can do with it what he sees fit. That's my perspective. If he chooses to allow things to grow there that don't belong, thats his perogative. In this instance.....he allowed me to get a negative diagnosis.....which is wonderful. Down the road, it may be different, and I know whatever comes my way will have to be ok. I'm not saying I will always handle things properly or with acceptance right off the bat.....but only He knows what lies before us and how He will be glorified through it.

We all have a terminal diagnosis...... It's called sin. We all are destined for Hell unless we repent of our sin and ask Jesus to save us. We will all die....our temporary earthly bodies will decay, but our soul will live on in heaven with Him. We will get a new resurrected body one day!

Trying to look for Jesus in all aspects of our life can be difficult. We are selfish beings and want things our way the easiest way possible. It's our nature. We can always ask Him for more of Himself to be revealed to us through prayer and study. He will listen and gladly show us. We just have to ask.