My mind goes in a hundred different dierctions at once. Maybe it's due to years of multitasking? Maybe I secretly have ADD and never knew it? Maybe it's just how God made me.....but, I do know one thing. Once an idea or thought comes to my head i have to write it down or blurt it out.....if I don't, it goes away and it may never return. My brain is small and for me to remember anything is a miracle.
Most of my childhood is wiped away.....why? I don't know, but it upsets my mom when she tries to reminisce about this event or that event when I was young and I have to say..."sorry, don't remember that". I feel bad but what can I do? I'm learning that writing things down is a big help. I've got so many notebooks it's not funny. I have one that I just write random things in to help me remember. My daughter wants me to write down all my childhood memories. I've started this.....but it's taking some time. She only wants them to have good laugh now and then at the dumb things my brother and I did. This makes me laugh too as to why she wants it.....so I'll continue it.
But in the last 3 years I've really been keeping notes and record a lot of things I wouldn't normally have done. I have my EMT notebooks and notes how to do certain things in the ER and on ambulance. I refer to them and add to them as I need to.
My Bible notes are excessive to most people, but it's how I remember and learn......and I add to them all the time. I keep a notebook with me most of the time...."just in case" I need to remember something for later.
I ask a lot of questions. When I first started my job I have now it was all new to me. I asked so much questions im sure the nurses were dreading me coming around them to ask things, but they were gracious and helped me along. If it weren't for their patience with me, I wouldn't be able to do all the things I can do now. I know that and I hope they do too.
Same is true for my study of God and His Word. I ask a ton of questions to my mentor Esther, my pastor, the elders at my church, my church family, friends of the faith who have been reading the word a lot longer than me, and random people I meet that tell me they are Christians. I am always wanting to learn something from someone or by reading. All these people have patience with me as well and I'm so grateful. If they didn't, I'd be lost.
It's amazing to me how God uses people for His glory. It's more amazing to me that he would choose to use me at all. I pray He continues to use me in that the desire to learn more and more about Him never goes away. I will continue to write things down. My goal is not only to help me remember now....but to also to leave a legacy for my kids someday.
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