Relax

I'm finding that I can't do things like I could 10 years ago.......not that I'm not able, just that I get tired quicker, I guess.

I can't rave enough enough about how much I love my job. People that know me can't figure out my enthusiasm, but it's true. Personally I can't explain it either.......but I know it's true too.

Some days are harder than others. Some days leave me drained and exhausted. Sometimes it's not just the physical tiredness.....it's the mental exhaustion as well. But I've always vowed to leave it at the door when I go home. I still feel tired at home, but don't dwell on the events of the day. In this line of work you can't dwell on the things that happened in a 12 hour shift. If you let it all sit and fester.....oh my....what a time it would be. More exhaustion than I need.

So my days off are spent with more relaxing and spending quiet time with God than I ever did. Maybe it's cause my kids are grown? Maybe it's cause I'm being lazy? Maybe it's just cause this is what God has for me in my day off? Maybe it's ok? Well.....even if it's not ok, I do it anyway. Haha. And I still do other things on my day off......I just don't go....go.....go all day.

I love the quiet.......and my family has always been later sleepers than me so getting up early when they were all in bed was something I looked forward to. Quiet......no tv......no radio.....no noise. I love that these days. It's helps me refuel for the next days of tasks. It helps me stay close to my God. It helps me get back on my focus of why I do what I do.

10 years ago I was working at my school job.....then after I got home I had a million and one things to do. Some days would be church meetings or youth group. Some days I would work another job when I got off or run  my kids to practice or a job of their own.....football games......band concerts......sleepovers.....dinners.....family gatherings.....camping......I could go on and on. We all know how busy life can get. My boss at the time would ask me how I did all that stuff and it made her tired just thinking about me and all I did. To be honest I wouldn't have had it any other way back then, but now is a different story. Now......I'm noticing it. Now I don't know if I could do what I used to. I don't have to wonder if I can because right now is right now. Right now I know my limits and my God has plans that far exceed my plans.....so I have to be patient and do what I can.

Be there for someone hurting,....be there when my husband is having a rough day.....be there for my family.....be there for my church......be there when I'm needed to pray or hold someone.......be there to encourage someone........these are things I need to do.

Ephesians 3:20 says......My God is able......
He is able to do abundantly more than we ask or imagine. I see this in my life. I am tired but each new day He gives me strength to go on.....and serve Him. For that I am eternally thankful.